Happiestgirl

Unpredictable life

2012-02-09T00:07:00.003+08:00

It has been a long long time never update my blog. There are many words from my heart I want to share and when I wanted to share, I don't know what to share already. Life is always unpredictable. Things you wish it will happen will never happen, things you wish not to happen at last happened. You have no choice to say yes or no but to accept. I used to be like to plan but what I planned do not always can be executed. It is nothing to do with determination, more likely on destiny. I do not like to believe on this, however sometimes I just can believe it. Just to believe miracle will happen on me.

Health is wealth

2011-01-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

Health is wealth, and wealth is health. Many people using health to get wealth in the early and using wealth to get health in the later. I noticed we should not take for granted, wear appropriate PPE is essential. Some questions in my mind. How to work for long hours with respirator? How to work in a workplace that is not good indoor air quality and still can maintain good body health? Full equipped with PPE should be include lab coat, glove, goggles, mask, safety shoe, cap, and etc. How to work long hours efficiently with these well equipped? Working in paint/coating industry is like working with solvent; working in latex industry is like working with ammonia. In conclusion, working in chemical industry is like working with hazardous chemical.

工作

2010-06-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

读了这么多年书，终于做工了。我开始了我第一份工，至今也有半年了。从充满理想梦想的年轻人，变成了一个没有梦想的人。工作好像纯粹为钱似的，每天早出晚归，总是尽量使自己很累，睡醒又是新的一天，日复一日，这就半年了。这就是生活。
进入社会大学，学到很多书本没有的东西。理解到上司的话就是命令，上司永远是对的，我永远是错的。理解到公司请我是要我做工，不是学东西；我会是应该，不会是悲哀。理解到在公司里是没有正义的，每个人面对老板都是卑微的。理解到打工者没有资格谈人权或尊严，必须为五斗米折腰。理解到社会是现实的，适者生存，办公室政治可以毁了我。理解到要生存就必须带面具做人，必须学习埋堆，学习如何随机应变；一个不留神，随时失去工作。理解到同事不是战友，而是沙场上的敌人。理解到这社会没有理所当然，所有事情都是人为的，刻意的。理解到所有事情都会因关系起变化。理解到要上场，就必须理解规则。
我被大学宠惯了，不懂世间险恶，是我太天真还是。。。？这是人性？这是社会？
是时候醒了。

What is life all about?

2009-11-02T12:58:00.003+08:00

From the day I come to this earth, I ever have a wonderful life for few years with no burden, no obstacles, no challenges... and with nurturing and guidance. Starting from schooling, I'm starting busy with exams and assignments + projects... then when back to home, busy with tonnes of homework, tuition, housework... After graduated, busy with job hunting and interviews. After got a job, will be busy with working... Schooling took me 21 years of time, and working will take me another 30-35 years... if lucky might can be deducted to 25 years. The road is full with obstacles and challenges, and finally I'm graduated after 21 years of educations. Yet, soon I'll be turn into 2nd stage of my life which is even longer and even challenge. From the day we come to this earth, we already have to be busy with lots of task given and duties born with us. We need to take our responsibilities as a student, a daughter/son, a mother/father, an employee,... we are so busy... until we neglect what should we do for ourselves, but not others. We seem to work for our children, like how our parents work for us and how our grandparents work for our parents. After all, what is life all about? Keep busy completing task and work for people around us? Life only begin after retirement and children grew up? and how many people can wait till that days to come? Most forced to leave in the middle and some leave when the days finally come to them. This is life, this is the reality. We have no choice but to go through it, till the day we leave.

Reality

2009-10-21T10:51:00.002+08:00

Remember that when I study the moral during primary and secondary school, we always taughted to be honest and kind hearted, and so on. Now, as an adult, I will say that we can be honest and kind hearted, but with terms and condition. Same to others moral values. I wish I can always be honest, but if this would hurt anyone or myself, then it is good not to be honest. Indeed, I don't really understand this in the past, but now I understand why must we not to be honest all the time. Ideal is ideal, reality is reality. I wish I can be an ideal person too, but ideal person cannot survive in the reality. Therefore, in order to survive in the reality, I have to put ideal aside. A lot of questions in mind, yet question doesn't mean have answer. The answer is only one, to accept. You wish to be honest, but people around you prefer you not to be honest. Sometimes, those people who wish you to be honest at the end will not like you after you being honest. It's funny but not ridiculous. At the time you honest, and tell out your voice in heart, that's the moment for people to attack you and take for granted.

慢性自杀

2009-09-23T14:52:00.002+08:00

癌症，是近年来最常见的头号杀手。能痊愈的机会不是没有，只是非常渺茫。最近，好像很多人都中风，不管七八十岁还是四五十岁，都中招。似乎，已到了人人都有这个风险的状态了。是什么原因造成的呢?生活习惯?还是饮食习惯?我说，两者都是。中风主要原因是因为血压高。生活习惯与饮食习惯则会影响血压。油腻与胆固醇高的食物及熬夜再加上少运动，会慢慢带领你达到高血压境界。有些人会说，睡觉时间都不够了，哪有时间运动? 工作量太多，工作压力太大，睡觉时间已经很少了，却还会失眠。由于工作压力大，工作量多，也很难准时吃饭，能吃的时候已经饿得不像人样了，当然先挑最爱吃的，可是好吃的东西都不太健康。很多时候吃的都不是真的食物，是人造的。为了吸引顾客，什么样的食品加工都有，e.g., food coloring 制造色素，ester 制造味道。。。很多人为了方便，都会吃快餐；为了工作功课，都会熬夜；为了美丽，都会把不同的化学物品往身上放。殊不知，已慢慢地走向慢性自杀这一环了，是癌症，中风，还是猝死? 也许，你会说，工作没办法不熬夜。你是工作，不是卖身。也许，你会说，快餐好吃又方便。你是为了饱肚还是吸取养分?也许，你会说，这是保养。你是真的保养还是把自己变成木乃伊?市面上很多指明没有sodium laureth sulphate (detergent/foaming agent) 的personal care product开始冒出，也有指明没有反式脂肪的食物标签出示。有些护肤品甚至指明没有paraben(methyl-, ethyl-,propyl-,butyl-) (防腐剂)。看来，人们通常是遇到问题才来解决，而非预防。中庸，谓无过而无不及。适可而止就好了。说就容易，做就很难。但，钱可以再赚回；健康失去了却换不回。当你想吃的时候，想想你吃的是什么；当你想熬夜时候，想想你的肝毒；当你想丢垃圾的时候，想想炎热的天气。

Job Hunting

2009-09-23T14:05:00.003+08:00

Nowadays getting a good job is harder than getting a good husband. Jobs are easy to get, but good jobs are hard to get. All boss are same, they wish to get a good employee with high qualifications and performance but with low demand, e.g. low pay. While at the same time, all employees are same too, they wish to get a good job with low work load but with high return, e.g. high pay and good benefit. However, we also notice that, the possibility for the boss and employee to be satisfied in getting employed and to employ is low. However, nowadays due to global economic recession, many people just simply get job and at the same time they looking for the job they desired. Same theories applied on getting a life partner, it would be very funny, but logical. For me, getting a job is a must, getting a life partner is a must too. Work for a bad job is suffer so as married a bad husband is suffer too. If I simply work for jobs and I quit when I dissatisfy, my record will be bad, unless I don't record. If I simply dating or marry with guys and I break up or divorce when I dissatisfy, my record will be bad too, unless I don't be frank. I might end up to be jobless or just simply work as a promoter or sales girl. Same like I might end up to be a lonely old lady or just simply marry a poor bad old man. Therefore, attitude is the most important. Looking for a career, but not looking for a job. Looking for a husband (Mr. Right), but not looking for a man.

不想长大

2009-09-13T12:48:00.004+08:00

昨晚看了天映频道的播出，想起小时候的我也曾渴望快高长大，期待每一年生日的到来。生日的到来，就意味着长大了一岁，又一岁。而其实生日等同于母难日。没有母亲的怀胎十月，也没有今天的我。我生日的那天，其实就是母亲最辛苦的那天，冒着生命危险也要让我出世。与其庆祝生日，不如感谢母亲。随着一天一天的成长，二十五年后的今天，我不仅看到自己长大成人，同时看到父母两鬓斑白。岁月不饶人，看到身边朋友一个接一个的结婚生子，我惊觉我也到了适婚年龄，我感触万分。从出生，学爬学走学讲话，读书，工作，谈恋爱结婚生子，相夫教子，养儿育女，面对生老病死，这是人生必经之过程。原来我已来到人生第二阶段，我不能再好像小孩那样撒娇。我不想长大，可是我已经长大，没有回头，只有前进。不想长大，不是因为我不敢面对，只是我缅怀过去。以前还是小孩的我，，思想单纯天真无邪，无忧无愁。今天的我，会努力成为一个合格的成人，担任好我的角色。身为子女要孝顺父母，身为姐姐要包容弟弟，身为妹妹要体谅姐姐，身为学生要努力读书，身为员工要服从上司。过去已成事实，未来无法预料，唯有现在才是最真实的，我会好好地过每一天珍惜现在所拥有的。

宠物

2009-09-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

收养此猫至今应有一年有余了，是吾家第二只收养的猫。经观察此猫，灵性十足，行为举止犹如人类般，令吾有所感触。猫，顾名思义，是动物。而人类，亦被称为高级动物。换言之，猫即是低级动物。于吾而言，猫的身体只不过是个躯壳，其灵魂与人类的灵魂实属同物，均为灵魂。过去吾家第一只收养的猫因多次随地在邻家大便而招乱棍打死继而丢弃于沟渠，半年前吾家第二收养的猫的孩子因到邻家偷喝拜神的水而招来杀身之祸。倘若那不是猫，是人的话，际遇必大不相同。同是灵魂不同躯壳，命运就因此注定悲惨。难道猫就没有同等的生命价值吗?

毕业

2009-09-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

从五岁上幼稚园，七岁上小学，十三岁上中学，十八岁上大学先修班，二十岁上大学，到今年二十五岁硕士毕业，共念了二十一年的书，终于毕业了！辛苦了多年终于学有所成，过去的付出都得到了回报。想起过去学生时代的情景觉得很感触，很想念当学生的滋味。走出校园，踏入社会，犹如踏入人生第二阶段，回首学生时代恍如隔世。处于人生转捩点的我，百般滋味在心头。以前，读书是为了考试；现在，读书是为了自我充实。我终于明白何谓书到用时方恨少的道理，亦更加明白做人比做事更为重要。懂得人情世故比熟读四书五经来的更有用。